Thursday, May 10, 2012

The last time I posted was last year at this time. So much has changed. At that time I started on a wild roller coaster ride of thyroid issues. I was sick, depressed, weak and dizzy. I could hardly walk, let alone blog, garden or any of the fun things that go with summer. On top of that, life was changing drastically. My son was getting older, starting college, spending more time on his own, pulling away from Mom and Dad, needed more help adjusting to life but at the same time not letting us into his life. I felt totally at the mercy of the current. Today is so totally different. Just as the irises and lilacs are blooming, the grass in knee-high, and the birds are nesting outside the window; life has circled around to a new beginning. My son is finishing his homeschool high school work. He has finished his college degree. My hubby is back to work full time after 5 years of work comp battles, college for him, followed by unemployment. I am medically stable, both thyroid-wise and seizure-wise. I am emotionally and psychologically stable again. What have I learned? Once again, that I am not the General Manager of the Universe. I keep applying, but they send my resume back. Most of the stuff I worry about doesn't ever happen. I will never get to know in advance what will happen and how it will turn out. My son is his own person and will learn best if I get of his way and let him thrash his way through, unless he wants help. My hubby needs appreciation and affection as much as I do. No one cares if I'm not perfect. Whew. Lots to process, but I'm in a good place. I hope to enjoy what I missed last summer.

Summer Iris

Summer Iris